ANYHOW!!! Things are going okay. My son has a mouth on him. It’s unbelievable, especially for a just-turned-3 year old. I wouldn’t expect the things he says. I guess that’s part of childhood and motherhood though, right? Okay, so my fault – I pulled off the highway and let him pee in a parking lot one day. So sue me!!
Today I’m just in the mood to sit and watch a movie. I’d like some quiet time. I kinda miss that part of my before-life. I also miss being hot. But I’m working on that one.
I’ve really decided today, for sure, I need to start exercising and watch what I eat. I really want to be thin again. I want to be how I was when I was 18. When my girls and I used to put on our skirts and tank tops and parade ourselves around The Crossings. When we used to get into my NEON YELLOW FORD ESCORT ZX2…
… and open all the windows and the sunroof, with the music BLASTING.. and drive! I miss that. I miss that a lot. But I can deal with missing that life.
But I want my body back!!!!
And that’s how it’s going to be, I say!!
NOW. Okay, so Dude and I had a pretty big argument. Which went into his own little issues to go along with this. Well all that is okay now. He is moving. I’m very nervous about him moving, I’m kinda scared that’ll make it not work out. But then the more I think about it.. it’ll make it just like it is now. He comes over once or twice through the week, I go over there once every other week. That’s just how it is now.. so there’s no big deal there. He said to me “Are we okay? Are we still in love? I don’t want to give up on us.” Yes, we are okay. We are still in love. Very much in love, actually. I’m happy, he’s happy.. Zach is happy.
I’m trying to find another job. I want a day job. A job where I can work during the DAY and then come home. Like normal people. Haha. I’m trying for a daycare until I can get my schooling moving. Looking forward to that as well.
Well this seems to be quite the post!! I wasn’t planning on writing this much. Maybe I’ll just go watch a movie now..
There’s always that empty spot inside, no matter what. You can try to fill it and try to fill it but it’s never full until you are truly happy.
I am almost there.
The CNA thing takes about 2 months or so. I’m going to go for that. While I’m doing that, I plan on going to school to be an LPN. That takes 2 years or so. That’s my plans. I feel like everything is slowly coming together.
I am talking to a friend again. We are okay. We have been talking and catching up and hopefully we are over the childish nonsense. I hope.
I am getting more excited for spring time. Zach got a bike and he can’t wait to ride it. I need to get one too so that we can ride together once he learns. I can’t wait to go to the beach, I can’t wait to go to Dorney park, I can’t wait to just go. I LOVE the spring time, the summer time. I love the fun we can have. It’s just an all around happy time to me.
However.. it’s also the time I normally screw up. So here’s hoping I stay strong this time. I plan on it.
Zach’s party was okay. A lot of people didn’t show. It irks me that adults are ignorant enough to just not show up. If your child is not going – say so. It costs me money. I hate wasting money.
SOOO I guess there’s really not too much to say. This is a quick update. I’m just happy.
I’m getting things together. I’m getting life in the right lane. I’m happy. My son is great. I’m in love. Everything is going great. For once.
I’m so proud of myself. I got my GED results and I passed everything. I figured I would, honestly, I really did. But I did so much better than I thought I would. I’m very proud of myself. This is a huge step. This means I can go forward with my life. And I really, really have decided 100% for sure what I want to do. I want to be a CNA. I want to go to school for it and get it done and pursue it. I want to love living my life. And I am looking forward to it.
At 6:36pm I will have been a mother for 3 whole years. Ahh.. wow. I can’t believe it’s already been 3 years. I can’t believe my baby is 3! He’s not a baby anymore, he’s in his toddler years. He’s growing up. It’s sad, but exciting. I love this little monster so much.
There are times I wish I could change the way things worked out, or the time period that everything happened. I wish I could change the times, but he is the one thing I’d never change.
6:36 pm.
6lbs 11 oz.
Zachariah Joseph Sosa
(The only boy that I would give everything to!)
So I was at WalMart yesterday.. and I was standing in line when this lady kept staring at me. She looked about a little older than me, maybe. She told me that I’ll probably think she’s crazy, but she has a feeling and she needs to give me this CD. She just bought it, and she said she just feels that I’m at a point in my life where I need it. She said there’s a song on it, called I Will Not Be Moved …. it was a Natalie Grant cd. Never heard of her. The woman said she is a Christian, but hasn’t always been. And goes to a church around here and I should go. Well, turns out.. I used to go to this church to see a guy I knew play in his band. The lady, without me telling her anything, told me that she has a sister named Kasey too. And that her sister is going through some hard times and she can feel that I am as well so she gave me the CD. I’m so amazed with this, because it’s true. I really could use some faith right now, some help from above. And the song… is so me.
Love like this is hard to find. I don’t know these people, but I wish them all the best. This is amazing.
James & Bernardine Andrews
James & Bernardine Andrews
March 02, 2008
James and Bernardine (McCaffery) Andrews of Effort recently celebrated their 60th wedding anniversary with a surprise party at home with family.
The couple were married Feb. 7, 1948, at St. Joseph’s Church in Bogota, N.J.
Mr. Andrews is the son of the late Patrick and Catherine Andrews. He was employed by Rockaway Township Department of Public Works in Rockaway Township, N.J., until his retirement in 1989. He is a fourth-degree member of the Knights of Columbus.
Mrs. Andrews is the daughter of the late John and Frances McCaffery. She was employed by the Rockaway Township Finance Department in Rockaway Township, N.J., until her retirement in 1989. She has been an avid bowler for 45 years in Effort and Rockaway Township, N.J.
Both are members of Our Lady Queen of Peace Roman Catholic Church in Brodheadsville.
The couple have five children: Kathleen Elko and her late husband, James Elko, of Denville, N.J.; James Andrews and wife Kathleen of Effort; Patrick Andrews and wife Donna of Denville, N.J.; Karen Hoel and husband William of Chandler, Ariz.; and William Andrews and wife Kathleen of Ogdensburg, N.J. They also have 12 grandchildren and four great-grandchildren.
I am just.. blah. Murphy’s Law… Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong.
I’m just stuck. I’m doing my best. I’m trying. Yet, I seem to be getting no where. What do I do now?
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