UPGRADED!

Haha. So we have upgraded from just text  messages to actually calling my house! Woohoo! Big step right there, eh! However, there are a few texts that I just don’t get and have asked a guy friend of mine and a girl friend of mine what exactly it’s supposed to mean. We were talking and he said about how “you don’t want a boyfriend remember” … so I said ‘well I’m not looking for one but you don’t want a girlfriend either remember? so we’re even.’  Simple enough, right? Well he comes back with … “I’m not looking for a girlfriend but if I just happen to find one and want one, whoops” and in others, telling me he wants me all to himself. So is this the start of something? He’s also said he likes what we have going so far.
Truth being.. so do I! I am loving every minute of it. And the weird thing is, I’m not getting sick of him! Amazing, huh. Normally, I get sick of guys in about 2 months or less. Not him. Maybe things are looking up?

For work.. I have to take my backpackers test on Thursday. I’m starting to get nervous now. I have to read the packet sometime today. Ahhh.

So, C is coming over today after work. Spending the night. Woohoo! I’m looking forward to it! Oh god, am I falling for this guy? I’m nervous about that kinda stuff! I refuse to let myself ever get hurt again. Hopefully, things will go well. I hope I hope I hope.

OOO OOO AND GUESS WHAT! Saturday night I have a babysitter! Woohooo go me! Going out that night. Probably with C. But either way, I’m sooo looking forward to it!! Not quite sure what I’m doing. But looking forward to it either way.. Oooooo yay!

Okay so honestly I’ve only gotten about 2 hours of sleep so far. If that. And I feel fine. I feel like I slept and could do a whole 12 hour shift again. However, in about an hour or so, I doubt I’ll feel that way anymore.

Now another topic. I can not stand dealing with her anymore. I am just so aggravated. I don’t know what to do or how to let it out. Seriously. I just feel like I am going to explode. When she moved in, she said “oh yeah, I’ll drive you to work. I have to go there anyway right” … okay so what’s the problem? Everything I do, apparently. She seems to have MAJOR issues with Zach. And that’s something I just don’t deal with very nicely at all. So now she wants to start leaving at 4:30? When we don’t have to be at work til 6. Because THAT is going to help matters. I still have to drop him off. She’ll still have to wait. What is the issue? Then this morning… that was the topper. My mother told her she had to be in work by 7am, please be home by 6:30. Sure thing, she told her! No problem! Okay. Throughout the night, I asked, we’re going straight home right because my mom has to be at work. She said yes, I know. So then okay, why then, at 6am when we are clocking out, does she say… I have to stop at wawa and take Pete home first. WHAT THE FUCK!? Are you kidding me? Oh my god. So we argued. Of course. Obviously. I don’t get it. Seriously. How can you be 26 years old and soooo fucking oblivious to the world around you? I just really don’t get it. So we argued. She said … if you keep yelling at me, we may have to make different arrangements for you getting to work. I’m going to flip out.  Of COURSE, this awakes the bitch in me. I say good, go ahead, flip out at me. God, PLEASE fucking flip out at me. Oh my god. I am so angry even now still. So. I refuse to ride into work with her again. Or even talk to her anytime soon.

Let me just say.. next time C comes over and brings me anything. No matter what it is. No, Tas, you can NOT have any.

Sorry if I’m making no sense. I’m just really angry.

French fries and hot wings.

…A breakfast for champions!!! Or brunch? Whatever. It’s 10:15 and I’m cooking french fries and hot wings.

So I didn’t go shopping for black Friday. I couldn’t even fall asleep last night til about 3:30. I was pretty mad about it, actually. I hate not being able to fall asleep.

Anyhow. Today Sarah is coming to get us. We are all going to the tree lighting on Main St. I’m excited. This is the first year that Zach REALLY knows what is going on. He knows Santa Claus is coming, and he knows we get a tree, and he knows he gets presents. However, I am sure he doesn’t have any idea that he only gets to open 3 presents before we go to Uncle Johnny’s house for breakfast. Then we don’t open the rest til we get home around 11am. I guess it’ll be like 2 Christmas’ then? Not really sure. But let me tell you, I can’t wait.

I was freaking out about how I didn’t have the money to get his layaway off next week. Not realizing that next week is not the 6th of December. Oops. So next week I’ll just pay half and then the week after the rest. I still have to do more shopping. God. That’s the part I hate about holidays. Too much money and too much stress over money!!

After all this excitement today … Sarah and I are going out tonight. I think Tas may go too. I’m going to call a friend from work, see if he wants to go. C said he’ll go if he’s back by then. He’s in another town working and getting a new car. Finally. I hope he comes back tonight then! I want to see him. If not, then I’ll see him Sunday and then on Tuesday or Wednesday. Whatever. But I kinda miss him.

Awww *cheeeeese* Hahah.

Shift Keys

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
(Eat bunches!) 

Has anyone other than me ever held down the shift key and got some message about “holding down the shift key will filter..” whatever? I just got it two seconds ago. I hate that message. It’s a dumb one.

I’m cranky today. I’m tired and I’m sick. I have a cold. I’ve been sneezing like crazy. Coughing now. I hate being sick. And I blame C and the spawn. C came over here sick and Zach got it from Kaitlen. So oh yes. Now I am a sleep-deprived cranky mommy. And it won’t be fun for those around me. I promise.

So today is Thanksgiving. We’re not doing anything. Staying home and eating turkey. Going to try to sleep some more too. Wish me luck people!

And.. on the C note… I think I’m falling deep into like. Now what do I do?

And it has been told.

So the weekend went pretty well. C came over Saturday morning. Did not leave til Tuesday morning, however. Not on purpose! It snowed here on Sunday – Tuesday morning. Nobody could go anywhere. So I guess, you could say, we got snowed in.

Well, he met my mom. She LIKES him! Oh boy. *I* like him too. Hahaha. It all went well.

However, by Tuesday morning, we were so ready to get rid of each other. We both need our space. Which is great. But still like each other. A lot. Yay!

We watched  I Pronounce You Chuck And Larry.  It wasn’t as great as I thought it would be! I thought it’d be funnier. It was pretty good though. Not bad. Now that I own the movie, ya know.

*Cheesy Moment*
He gave me a full body massage Monday night. Now THAT was fantastic! Lotion and all. I loved it. Then some other :stuff:  …. use your imagination! By the way, that was even better than the massage!!!!   We went shopping together Tuesday morning. He kissed me and said “now we’re on camera” .. haha cute but dumb, I know. Okay, okay, one more thing here. We had a “bet” going of who would call who/text who first …. I won. He texted me at around 7pm while I was at work. Told me he just had to text me. Yay!!! Again, Butterflies!!

Okay okay back to normal! So we started the 12 hour shifts again yesterday. I’m going to be so tired today. I think I’m going to TRY to get the monster to take a nap around 12:30 or 1. Maybe play with his trucks in the bedroom. Whatever. I don’t care, as long as it works and I can sleep a few hours. Then maybe, just maybe, I’ll be okay. Wish me luck!!!

PS – Now you know why it took SO long to update!! …Because he was here and I couldn’t possibly even read other blogs while he was here. Duhhhh… Hah?

THE weekend!

Okay. So now here’s the deal. At first, Saturday was supposed to go like this:
Work.
Home.
Sleep for a couple hours.
Get up.
Clean the house.
Nap with Zach.
Get up & finish cleaning.
Mother comes home from work.
I go to get C to spend the night.

NOW.. it is going more like this.
Friday:
Rush to clean house!! (Mind you, I should be doing this right about now instead of sitting here and typing about it. Duh!)
Saturday:
Get off work.
Pick up C.
Come home.
Do… I don’t know?

Yeah, see? Drastic change right. His roomies are having a poker night and he doesn’t want to be there for any of it. For some reason, he says he’d rather spend time with me. Now, trust me, I am not saying that is bad! Because I am honestly loving the time I spend with him. He is a big cuddler. And normally, I’m not. But I just love being close to him!

…So, he set up a myspace. Added me. Sent me this..
” just seeing how this damn thing works. so glad i met u. maybe see u tomorrow? hehe “

Ahhhhhhhh I LOVE the butterflies!!

Oh and did I mention that this weekend … he meets my mom? A little bit nervous right there. Seriously. I hope all goes as planned. I think I’m going to invite him over for Thanksgiving as well.

So other than all this happy stuff …. I am so broke. So so so broke. I hate being broke. But I’ll be okay. I think I will, anyhow. I hope.

The spawn hasn’t been too bad today! …I hope I’m not jinxing myself now.

Pimples

A lot of people I work with … I’d consider pimples. I’d love to pop a few of them. It’s not even that they are bad people. It’s just that they like to think they know everything. Okay, so then fucking know everything, asshole. I don’t care. But when it comes down to you needing to know everything – don’t bother me! Haha. Like I said. Some people just need to be popped.

Maybe it’s just me..

I think I’m just a very strange kind of girl. Seriously. I don’t know any girls like me. I really don’t. What kind of girl is going to tell the guy that she really likes “No, don’t come over today, haven’t you had enough of me this weekend?” Haha. Yes, that would be me.

Hell, I LOVE me. I’m a girly girl and can be one of the guys too. Haha. No, seriously. I love me.

And right now.. well, technically all day long, I’ve been cleaning and rearranging. I get bored and rearrange my house. Yes. This is what I do in my own little world over here. I put music on and fold clothes, do dishes, dance around the house, vacuum, rearrange furniture, put things away, etc. Is it just me? Really! If you do this, please, let me know. I need to know I’m not the only one!

Last night I put music on at 10pm, took the clothes out of the dryer and folded them. Put them away today. Played with Zach for a good two hours last night too with the music on. Oh yes, I am a BAAAAD MOMMY … I didn’t put my son to bed til around 12 last night! Sundays nights for me are like Saturday nights for “normal” people. I don’t work Sunday nights. Not until the 12 hour shifts come back, anyhow. So I like to CHILL. Yes, I say chill too.

…I admit it. I do have some issues.

French Vanilla Hot Cocoa

It’s great. I’m addicted.

So this weekend, Tas’s friend Matthew stayed here. He cooked me dinner on Saturday night. Then we were all supposed to go to C & K’s house but J called Tas so she decided she wanted to see him instead. What else is new. So I took Matthew and we went. I got to spend time with C and it was great. I love spending time with him. He just is wonderful. He makes me laugh and I feel comfortable with him. And at his house too. It’s nice. I’m loving it.

And I’m still not falling in love.

Crazy…

My friend. is. driving. me. INSANE! 

I don’t think I can take anymore.